My Achilles Heel

      This is my first time writing in English. I absolutely feel frustrated because of my grammar. It is not easy when I must speak or write in English. In the other hand, I fully understand when I read articles or journals. My pronunciation is so bad that often makes people confusing. Occasionally, what I mean is different of the listener understanding. Shortly, English is my achilles heel.

      In this writing, I want to tell you about my experiences with English. I knew English for the first time when I was a student of the fifth grade in the elementary school. In the time, I bought a book which had materials of many subjects. One of those was English. Although it was only a few of English, I was delightful. Because I did not know what the rules of English, I spelled all of words with the same way when I read Indonesian.

      I did not have English teacher in my elementary school, because I lived in countryside. When I was a student of junior high school, I felt strange studying English for several months. I never had studied the rule before. Because I was a student of the best schools in the city, my teacher considered all of students knowing English well. I wanted to ask when I did not understand, but my shame made me could not say anything.

      Live must go on. I patiently studied English from the base. Actually, I did not study it because of my willingness. It was for my final test. Because of that, I forgot all about English when I finished my examination. My grade of English is good enough. In the senior high school, English was more difficult than before. Many of rules, longer text, and more complicated vocabularies made me lazy to study English anymore.

      I thought that the latest time studying English was in the senior high school. I am absolutely wrong about that. I must study it at university. More than before, it is more extensive. Almost all of my text books are in English. If I wanted to be the best student in my campus, speaking English fluently was the prime prerequirement. Because of English, I always fail to be the best student in my faculty. After I graduated from university, I got many difficulties because I can not speak English well.

      As a alumnus of physics, my GPA is good enough to get a schoolarship from abroad. But, my ability of English is the biggest obstacles. I do not have enough daring to study abroad. Finally, I luckily get schoolarship from LPDP. This is the only one that allow me to apply with TOEFL score is lower than five hundred. After I met many friends getting LPDP schoolarship in PB class for three months, I finally understand why English is the most important things to make our dreams come true. 

*Thanks to my friend who corrected the error grammar, Rozi Setiawan. I hope you will be editor for another my writing brother (with Mr. David's style)!!!!